It’s been three months since I wrote a post. I’m not surprised that I took a step back after starting, I tend to do that with projects, but I always come back to them when they are important to me. Life has continued on, work has continued even in the most of uncertain times. I’m grateful for every paycheck! I was placed in an office recently, after working from home for over two years. I questioned the reason. I could’ve been in an office closer to home but was placed instead, in an office that required a longer drive. I was agitated at first. As we often do, I complained. My job isn’t busy enough to be sitting in an office. It’s not that my position isn’t important, it is. It’s just that my work is more annual/quarterly and just being available. I’ve worked twenty years to get here and I’m thankful for it! But I still complained and stressed over silly things, like clothes. My husband told me that I am willing to say the truth to anyone and not care if they think I’m crazy for it (I mean after all the truth is just the truth), and yet I’m stressing over how they might view me because of my attire. He said my headstone will read, “Beauty over Sanity”. He was joking of course but it really struck a chord with me. How can I place such importance on something so unimportant? In my past life, before I really found the Lord, I was a raging shopaholic. I had more clothes than I could ever wear, it was more of a cover for my insecurities. Now I know where my worth comes from, and it is not from fabric. Sigh. Getting back to the point, I began to reflect on myself a bit. What do I have to complain about? The return to office, although I’m still adjusting, has actually been a very good thing.

First and foremost, I still have a job! Some don’t and yet I do.

Secondly, my drive is about twenty minutes, and it is a beautiful drive. It feels like ten minutes, and I use that time to listen to sermons and get my mind prepared for work and then for returning home.

Third, my coworkers are great. Not only are they all very nice, but I have also met a woman who is extremely, like-minded. Today we talked for an hour about the Lord. That is a priceless perk at any workplace!

Fourth, I have time to devote to bible study and even my blog at the office. I don’t have the house or children to distract me. I miss home and my family, but I have the feeling that the Lord wanted more of me, and this was a way to get it. I’m okay with that.

I’ve also decided to return to school with the uncertainty of my employment, this return to office even gives me time to focus on schoolwork in between work tasks. I think I may end up being a more productive person because I had to go to an office.

One last perk, despite what I wanted to believe, working from home really did distract me from my family. It’s hard to be fully present when you can check your work email anytime. My laptop stays at the office now and when I’m home, I’m truly at home. physically and mentally.

Even when we’re complaining and frustrated with perceived inconvenience, the Lord always has a plan. There is always growing to be done. I couldn’t be more thankful for the Lord’s longsuffering patience with me.

But thou, O Lord, art a pitiful God and merciful, slow to anger and great in
kindness and truth. -Psalms 86:15 (Geneva Bible)